There’s a quote (probably from someone famous and not the meme I read it off of) that says “Better to dance with the devil you do than the devil you don’t”
It all started when I had this amazing weekend long date with “Veronica”. “V” for short….yep that’s right, ALL WEEKEND! The weekend was full of sex, too much talking, way too much overthinking and a lot of time wasted watching TV but all that said, it was really nice weekend. Now, before you go “OH SHIT, is she gay?!” “Did she just come out” - No. Contrary to what ex # 2 told some people, I’m not gay (“not that there’s anything wrong with that” Seinfeld.) Quick side bar - sometimes I think life would probably be easier if I was gay. For examples, we could buy tampons in bulk, share the same shampoo, they wouldn’t feel the need to compete with my son for attention and they’d know to back the fuck off every 28 to 30 days, but I digress…back to the story: It started on a raining Friday night with “V’s” idea to veg out on my couch and binge watch Game of Thrones (or GoT as the cool kids type it). Admittedly, I was a Game of Thrones virgin. After popping the Season 1, episode 1 cherry, I still wasn’t sure why it had a cult following but that quickly changed as the night progressed. Between the castles, the scenery, the sex (not the incest part) and the hotties (for the love of God, where has Jason Momoa been all my life and why wasn’t I using the image of him a lot more often in any "extra curricular activities"), I was hooked on the series. Before I knew it, it was after 2am and Season 1 was almost over. In between all the tits and ass in the GoT episodes, I would analyze “V.” It was clear “V” talked too much and needed to let some shit go but overall was a relatively cool person and I hadn’t given them enough credit. I’ve known “V” as long as I can remember but didn’t really get to know them on a more personal level until about 4 years ago. “V” is sarcastic, funny, cynical and complains a lot about not getting laid. On the flip side, “V” is also the “forever” optimist when it comes to loves and really tries to help people get through the frustrations of single life (or life in general). “V” has a relatively decent personality and comes across as a pretty “open book” person but definitely hides a little bit of a dark side. “V” can be pretty jaded, a bit bitter, and doesn’t really trust that others are genuine (especially those of the opposite sex) “V” is into deep conversations that sound totally weird to people that don’t like to dive. I’ve sometimes wondered if “V” is bi-polar or a little schizo (there’s a lot of talking to themselves) but after a fair amount of legit (barely paid for by insurance) therapy, they officially don’t have either of those disorders. “V”’s just trying to figure shit out. I often overlooked “V” when I was in the mood for company with another person because I thought there were too many issues in “V’s” head for there to be much fun. I thought it was a lot more exciting to shop for a stranger on the internet and go on some dates then dance with the devil I knew – “V”. I often underestimated “V” and was pretty judgmental of their behavior. I also took into consideration (way too often) other people’s opinions of “V”. A lot of which was/is total bullshit and I didn’t realize that until I spent some quality 1/1 time with “V”. “V” and I went all weekend long and didn’t just binge on GoTs. We over analyzed life and our relationships, and while there was some crying and vulnerability, there was a fair amount of laughing at the fact that we’d survived a lot of those choices and those same bad choices lead to some pretty great things, including new relationships. There was quite a bit of nostalgia for way back when past “loves” and a little thoughts on “hmmm…wonder what they’re up to now”. There was a TON of analysis over my more recent dating adventures and why I seem to have this 3 to 4 week honeymoon period with dates and then I run for the hills and okay…fine, there might have been a little bit of sex too (well sort of and most of the sex was just on GoTs) The thing is “V” is the devil I know. “V” is me. “V” is the dark, vulnerable side we’ve all got (whether you care to admit it or not) I just happen to name mine after this work exercise we did about three years ago where we basically named our alter egos. Yep, that’s right. I spent a weekend binge watching GoT’s by myself and here’s what I learned:
All that said, my binge watch of GoT, reminded me of how much I need time to myself to reboot. The only downside to the weekend (aside from the couch potato pounds gained) was that it didn’t end in really hot sex (well at least not with an actual person.) It’s also not very conducive to inspiring any new blogs so with that in mind, I’m contemplating dipping my toes in the dating pool again, even if it’s just for blog material (and to avoid another binge fest on my couch.) Maybe I should figure out how that whole Tinder thing works? Later gators!
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Jomama
9/29/2017 10:25:22 am
Spot on! 💜
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